defining your why…

Have  you ever come to a place in your life where you’ve thought something over for so long that you find yourself coming up with reasons to talk yourself out of the reasons for not doing something. (try to get that straight in your head… )  That was me a few weeks ago.  I knew I needed to hone in my focus, and I hated continually making excuses for not getting things done.  Finally I just said to myself,  “Stop coming up with reasons and excuses, for what you should be doing, and just do them. No one is going to do it for you. ”

Now, Philippians 4:13 is a verse that has become quite popular to quote.  As believers do we really believe that, ” WE CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS US”?!?      When you really begin to think about what that means for your life, you probably begin to realize just how much faith & trust in God that really takes.  The faith to know when to stay and the strength to know when to walk away.

Taking the time to fully develop your why, can be easy or it can be hard.  I hear so many people say their purpose is their kids, or their career.  As a person who still considers myself transitional my why is just me.  In focusing on me, I’ve really put a lot of thought into what that truly means…  I think it goes a little something like this…

I was a broken soul,  wondering through life with no true direction or plan of my own, it was through His grace and love that I sit here today, and it is only with His power that I will succeed in tomorrow, because of that…

“I want to be a woman whose life is a testimony to the power of God’s word, and His ability to transform & renew.”

What about your why, do you find it easy to define?

BE DIFFERENT…

“What can we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since God did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t God, who gave us Christ, also give everything else?”

Romans 8:31-32

Have you ever made a conscious effort to stop and only live in the moment? Not worrying about things you did in the past… not worrying about what is going to happen next month, tomorrow… even 30 minutes from now. Its challenging. Last week I turned 33. A few days before I had a minor meltdown… well not so much meltdown as a re-evaluation. It hit me that my mom passed away at 45… wow!!! I had so many dreams, goals, unanswered prayers to see through. 12 years wasn’t a very long way away… (not that I thought I would pass away in the same time frame or anything, more of an observation) then it hit me like a ton of bricks just how valuable everyday on this Earth is. I immediately made a deal with myself and with Jesus Christ to really enjoy this year… no expectations… no timelines… just a couple of guidelines and then go after it.

So the day comes, my birthday begins and it was truly an amazing day. I woke up to an entire day available to spend with, one of my favorite people, my dad. We went to lunch at my favorite restaurant and when the check came… we had been seated at Table #33…well isn’t that fun!!!

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Lunch was followed by another one of my favorite activities… a tour of the Abraham Lincoln Presidential Library. Let me tell you, the 3 hours of history and knowledge I soaked in was amazing. I had forgotten what an inspiring life Lincoln had led. Did you know that a few years before he became President of the United States you would have found him in a bed… alone… and so depressed from heartbreak that he didn’t even care to go on?

ABRAHAM LINCOLN PRESIDENTIAL LIBRARY & MUSEUM

I’ve been there… living in the muck & mire of life, sad, confused, feeling like I’m alone in a house full of people pretending to care about me, wanting to be away from all of them so badly that I’d say or do really anything. Not really wishing it would be over but rather just wishing for something… anything to be different. To wish for something to be different you have to do something fairly simple… BE DIFFERENT.

That difference for me has been to make a conscious effort to make all that I am… every breath that I take, an act of thankfulness and gratitude for every good person in my life and every beautiful experience Jesus Christ allows me to feel. When this began to happen my focus changed… it no longer mattered if I was in the right line of work… it no longer mattered if I would or wouldn’t, ever get married… have children. I have began to realize that even though my life is far from perfect and prayers are still given daily, dreams are still coming into fruition, I no longer have time to focus on the details because I am filled with such a joy that anything that will be added to the moment feels like a little miracle.

Abraham Lincoln Presidential Library

“Miracles” like my dad suggesting my favorite restaurant without even knowing it was my favorite… suggesting we head over to check out a new exhibit not knowing that spending a day at a library would be the perfect birthday gift for his daughter. And in those moments of gratitude all you can do is say…

“Thank you Jesus, for teaching me to dive into today instead of busying myself with developing tomorrow.” -eliza

it’s time to rewrite your story…

and the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows. – Luke 12:7

Deep inside of you there is a well. A deep well filled with dreams, visions, and ideas. 

Thoughts of who you are, of what you will become, of what you have dreamt about your entire life; aching to come out, to be heard.

Today, I can promise you that if you listen to those things, they will become you… because they are you. They are the essence for what you were were born to do, who you were born to be.

So I ask you to listen & believe. That still still small voice inside of you whispering.  Its called your destiny. And today you will find it because it has already found you.

It’s time.

a new journey…

Back in August I began a trek across the country that would change my life more than I ever believed it could. People would ask me, how long are you staying, what brought you back, why HERE… and I simply would say “I’m afraid to say anything regarding my plans because I’m afraid that God will play a trick on me and leave me here. Needless to say this was the last place on earth you would find me if it were up to me… but it wasn’t up to me and over the past 6 months I’ve gotten pretty ok with it.  Have you ever just walked away from everything… EVERYTHING!?!  To some that might seem scary or irrational or inappropriate but for me it was out of necessity. Some times we choose things in life that aren’t the best road, that put in our path choices that we never imagined choosing. In these instances walking away is fairly simple, removing yourself from toxicity is a must, and setting your goals higher is a non-negotiable.  I’ve learned a great deal about myself in these past few months, but my favorite part of this journey has been my reconnection to my faith in Jesus Christ.  In this change I’ve felt the need to change all things… including Creme de la Curves.  I love connecting with my readers, filling you in on the latest style, trends, tips and fashion & beauty are totally a passion of mine.

Eliza Beerbower - Creme de la Curves

While I will still be creating interactions with you all, they will now be on a more personal level, filling you in on my struggles, my passions, my desires, and my dreams.  With all this said I’m so excited to announce a new adventure in my life. I took the first three months of my time here, to stop and focus my energy & time on me. I read A LOT… journaled even more and genuinely just prayed the most. I felt like the message I was getting was that of {grace}. I had been saved from entering into a world of hurt & unhappiness. I have a story to tell, but in that story there was a voice in me that said, tell others stories with your strength I’ve given you. Be their strength. And so I did in the form of {grace} magazine.  It was launched at the first of the year. I’m so blessed to have the contributors who have joined us on board.  I truly believe God is going to do amazing things through the testimonies of those enclosed in the pages of each issue. {grace} will be encouraging the same standards as Creme de la Curves, by using ALL women no matter her shape or size to represent us.

Model : MoMoe MurrayPhotographer : Qiao Qiao Jade

I welcome you to bookmark the page {grace} magazine, I believe the content to be inspirational as well as the beauty & fashion… I hope you are all just as equally excited to take this journey I’m on with me, as I am in walking it.